Book Reviews

More Than Anything (More Than Anything 1) by Nick Kove at Arctic Circle Press

Genre Gay / Contemporary / Disability / Romance / Drama
Reviewed by Lena Grey on 09-February-2018

Book Blurb

He might’ve been the right person—if I hadn’t been so damaged and he hadn’t been so young.

 

The first time I met him, he had a seizure on the pavement in front of my flat. When my efforts to find someone who could take him off my hands failed, I let him spend the night. He was already asleep anyway, so it wasn't like I had any choice.

What started out as helping someone in need, slowly turns into something much more when he keeps appearing in my life. But how can he want someone like me? Someone so damaged and traumatised from my past that it keeps on messing up my present? When just one simple touch from someone is enough to bring on a flashback, a relationship with another person isn't exactly within reach.

 

 

First Edition published under the pen name T.T. Kove by Less Than Three Press, 2014.

Second Edition published under the pen name T.T. Kove by Arctic Circle Press, 2016.


Book Review

“Love me in your arms. You were my shelter from the storm...you were right there all along. I never knew a love like this before, Oh I just want to say that I love you more than anything.” ~ Lamar Campbell

Everyone has burdens to bear, but Jørgen's, of 'More Than Anything' by TT Kove, are heavier than most. Jørgen was abused as a child, both emotionally and sexually, at the hands of his uncle and his mother. It's left him emotionally scarred and socially inept. He has PTSD and often flashes back to traumatic past events with devastating consequences. Equally crippling, sometimes these bad memory triggers send him into panic or anxiety attacks; he feels like he can't breathe. Jørgen tries to manage these events himself, but more times than not, they manage him instead. He has learned some coping skills which help sometimes, but, as bad as these events are, he's not ready to face his fears and get beyond them. Jørgen knows he needs help, but his past experience with mental health workers has been so negative, that he's not been anxious to try again. The motivation appears when Geir, a young epileptic boy, has a seizure right in front of his house. Against his better judgment, Jørgen brings the boy inside and cares for him.

Most people are put off by Geir's illness; seizures can be frightening, especially if you've not experienced them before. Jørgen knows what to do because his abusive uncle had epilepsy, so it's nothing new to him. Each decision Jørgen makes about caring for Geir, i.e., bringing him in, sharing his bed with him, might be the trigger that throws Jørgen into chaos; but he also knows he can't leave the boy out in the cold. Jørgen and Geir slowly form a friendship, which is especially nice since neither have friends and are lonely. Before Geir came along, Jørgen thought he preferred to be alone He never realized how lonely he was. Geir is much younger, almost seventeen, and Jørgen is twenty-two which becomes an issue when they begin to have feelings for one another. Just when Jørgen is getting used to the idea of having someone around and coping better, Geir's father decides to move. Neither of them are happy about it, but since Geir is under eighteen, there's nothing they can do but comply. It gives both men an opportunity to examine their feelings and better formulate what they want out of life. Even though in different ways, they need to become more mature. A near tragedy acts as a motivator for Jørgen to begin to get the help he needs. Jørgen wants to live up to the potential that Geir sees when he looks at him. Jørgen just hopes it's enough to make Geir want to stay when he comes back from the city after he is eighteen and has experienced more of the world.

Geir is no stranger to abuse and loneliness either. He's constantly bullied at school, first because of his illness and, once his bully finds out he is gay, he begins to bash him because of that. After meeting Jørgen, Geir is instantly impressed by his charity toward a stranger. Geir needs friends desperately and apparently, so does Jørgen. He's concerned about their age difference, so Geir suggests that they just be friends; but the attraction is too strong and soon they are kissing and becoming more affectionate. Jørgen and Geir are both inhibited as far as anything sexual goes; Jørgen, because of his abuse; Geir, due to his epileptic medication. During their forced separation, Geir keeps in touch with Jørgen through letters, texting, and calls. Besides the fact that he misses Jørgen, he knows it is important because they both need to reassurance that their feelings are real and the desire to be together is as alive as ever. Geir takes Jørgen's advice to experiment a little before blindly going into a commitment which may not last, but all it does is make Geir more sure than ever that Jørgen is the one.

This was an intense, yet endearing story between two young men who urgently need to find someone to love them for who they are. Jørgen and Geir need someone to see them as they see each other, beyond their so-called limitations, to the bright souls underneath. Their love enables them to heal enough to begin to love each other. Only then can they be together offering each other all that they are. I recommend this book to everyone who enjoys a strong character-driven story, fraught with roadblocks which love and understanding help overcome. Thank you, Nick Cove, for an intense and emotional story.

 

 

 

 

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Additional Information

Format ebook
Length Novel, 152 pages
Heat Level
Publication Date 22-January-2018
Price $2.99 ebook
Buy Link https://www.amazon.com/More-Than-Anything-Nick-Kove-ebook/dp/B078TSKD6W